so i started a new semester today, not with my friends, not with my family from CHSON, but by myself and it was rough. Boy, its gonna be wierd not seeing everyone but ill manage, im a strong smart girl, with huge dreams and serious motivation. Ive got 3 classes, they seem like theyll be pretty easy and then come January, im back in business! I cant wait!! But for now ive gotta stay focused and take it day by day.
wherever we are, kiss me like you havent seen me in weeks!
city that never sleeps!
#swag <3
im heartbroken too you know. this wasnt easy for me. maybe i come off as someone who isnt affected by much, someone who has so many walls built up and wont let anyone come near them. but i have feelings too. im only 18 years old and ive been through a lot of shit to be criticized for having my fists in front of my face ready to fight anyone who tries to come close to my heart. i think i deserve to finally be happy and not have to worry about if this guy is truly loves me. i made this decision because im not happy. because youre not fighting for me, because you feel like youve already got me; that because im already your girl, you dont need to work to keep me around, that im not going anywhere. well, youre wrong. This is me telling you that i want you to prove to me that you are not like everyone else. And dont get me wrong. you are not a bad guy, you didnt cheat, you weren’t disrespectful, you didnt hit me, but you didnt show me you loved me either and that was just as bad. i love you but i now i need time. time for me to figure out if this relationship is what i want for myself. Time to see if you can change into the guy i want to spend the rest of my life with. time to see if i can go back to being the girl i was, without the attitude, not so emotional, not so broken hearted…actually happy. ONLY TIME CAN TELL ME whats in store for my future.
strawberrytelle:
Playful Relationships
I just want a playful relationship. A relationship not based on all seriousness, but just being able to call them names, be mean to each other, & insult each other without actually meaning any of it. Having a relationship where you’re not always calling each other babe, baby, boo, cupcake, etc, those are what many people strive to have. It’s not everyday where you’ll find someone who’s willing to just be in a relationship where after many playful fights they’ll still like you & come to you for a hug and a kiss. Relationships like these seem rare & hard to find.
One day when i find that special someone i want to to just wake up early in the morning and make her breakfast. Even though it may take an while but it’ll be worth it to me. And when she awakes and comes to the kitchen there will be a food for her right there waiting for her with an ” Hello, and Good morning ^_^ “. And as we eat and look at each other we’ll be happy. Because in return of making all of that food all I need is her happiness, her smile and sweet Kisses.